Day 21 - A picture of something you wish you could forget.
I didn't post last night because the only thing I could think of, I didn't want to post. Well, here I sit roughly 24 hours later, and I haven't come up with anything better.
The thing that I wish I could forget more than anything else would be seeing Ace like I did for the last time...legs suspended in the air, laying on his back, tubes down his throat breathing for him, the blood that covered the floor. I can still hear the ventilator breathing for him as I said "goodbye"/sobbed into the underside of his neck. This photo is much "cleaner" than what I have burned into my memory. This horse was prepped for colic surgery but the surgery had not yet begun. The website I found this photo on states that at the clinic all of the operating rooms have windows/viewing rooms but because colic surgery is so "messy" they close the blinds during it. I can attest to that. I saw a surgeon covered in blood...then I saw the operating room floor that was smeared red with blood like something out of a horror movie. 
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That must be awful to have that image burned in your mind.
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